He Speaks.............

Sometimes it seems strange to me that God would prompt me to post while I am spending my time with Him..... in His Word.....seeking Him....and pouring it all out to Him...... then it hits me....

It is all about Him

It makes perfect sense to share about Him

He is in it all

 

 

 

Here are some of my random thoughts from this yesterday and this morning.....

AND some of His purposefully, gently spoken to me...

 

I am laying here in the dark... wishing I did not have to do this another day...

I don't want to....

it is hard...

what will today be like

OH I SO HOPE NOT LIKE YESTERDAY!

 

God I don't like me

I do not like who it seems that I have become in the past few days...

(I bet that little boy can top me with feelings of self loathing)

This cannot possibly be who YOU want me to be

It isn't suppose to be like this

I AM trying....

I want to "take a break" like the therapist says

What in the world does that look like?  He never takes a break!

Really God ( I said this out loud), you would give me more of your most precious treasures to take care of when you see me like this!

Oh do I have to get out of this bed and start all over? 

Maybe I can go back to sleep... sleep will help

Oh rats..... can't do that... yesterday God spoke to me.... Don't sleep PRAY

My readings were about how Jesus went to pray and asked those closest to him to stay awake

and PRAY!  Oh how many times I want to just sleep.... I can't anymore... I need to pray...

 

Please Father....take all of me out of this day.... make me all and only you.....

(interesting that in these past few days... I am up early, wile it is still dark, able to get the day going and have my much needed Me time.  Thank you Lord)

 

 

He speaks....

 

I am here

I am here

You are not alone

You are enough just the way you are

You are complete in Me

I am enough for you

 

you must come to me

come to me

come broken

 

you cannot see it all

I am working.... you cannot see it all

You only see a little bit

You will see it all at the right time

 

you are mine and I love you

I will do this for you...

you cannot do this but I can

 

I am here

Stop trying to be someone else....

You were chosen to do this

You are good

You are beautiful

 

I am here

Lay it down

 

It is all coming together

I am working  all things together

I have the power to do this

I will put it all together

 

You are wrestling...but there will be blessing

It has to be this way, but it will get better

 

I am here....

I am with you always

 

 

Thankfully, In His Embrace

laurie